Ruby: an awesome classic.
[Image: A painting of a fat, light skinned woman with short, sandy colored hair sitting on the edge of a bed in profile. She’s wearing dark lingerie with tiny while polka dots, and there is a pile of colorful clothing on the bed behind her.]
by Angela Pabón
The actual postmodern society through mass media, creates an endless cycle of deception and frustration in today’s women. A war against the weighing balance and the mirror, that ties women to a fantasy ideal of a body and a poor body image.
In this project I wish to speak about the bodies that have been excluded in the present cultural-historic moment. Absent bodies, because they’re not represented and are excluded, in a society where all the present bodies have to correspond to the homogenous model promoted by the media. Bodies like mine, that are out of the beauty and health norms of society.
Through watercolors and self-portrait as an expressive tool, I wish to expose mi body in different situations of passive frustration, when I encounter myself with the fashion industry; where my body is absent in its size and design rank.
This is the last painting of my three real-scale self-portraits.
210cm (6.8 feet) high by 240cm (7.8 feet) wide. Watercolors and collage on Fabrianno watercolor paper.
(Sumbitted by frenchtoastadventures)
Where do you call home: The northwest suburbs of Chicago
How did you discover FA/HAES: I was wandering the stacks of my local library nearly twenty years ago, when I stumbled upon Nothing to Lose: A Guide to Sane Living in a Larger Body by Cheri Erdman. It changed my life to consider the idea that I could be not only be healthy but LOVED and deserving of respect no matter what the number on my dress or scale.
How did you become one of the Abundia Team: I attended an Abundia Retreat in 2007, where I had the great fortune to actually meet Cheri and tell her how influential her book had been for me. Four years later, my good friends Jeani and Rebecca invited me to meet with a group of ladies who were concerned that Abundia might not continue. Before I knew it, I was volunteering to take part as one of the new leaders.
What is your FA/HAES philosophy: That every person has value, dignity, and deserves respect no matter their size or health status. And that a huge step toward being a truly healthy, happy person is to unhook from media messages designed to make us feel bad about ourselves in order to buy stuff that ultimately won’t help so we’ll need to buy more stuff and so on.
What’s your favorite FA/HAES website or book or resource: Nothing to Lose, of course. I also can’t recommend Jean Kilbourne’s Can’t Buy My Love: How Advertising Changes the Way We Think and Feel enough. While not a FA/HAES book exactly, I think it’s so important to learn about how advertising, and the media overall, convince us that we are deeply flawed in order to sell their products. This manipulation is so harmful to our self-worth and our sense of empowerment and action. If you spend all your time trying to find the right hairspray to make your “problem” hair look amazing, (and believe me, I’ve done it), how will you have time to make the world, or YOUR world, a better place?
What one thing could you never give up: Cupcakes, and dogs. That’s two things.
Why are you amazingly awesome exactly as you are: I have an outstanding commitment to dessert and to trying to create a world where women love themselves enough to find the pleasure and joy in being exactly who they are, right now, no matter what the culture at large tells them is “valuable.” Also, I kill at karaoke.
Name: Rebecca Targ
Where do you call home: Right now, Milwaukee. But I’ve had home in West, Lafayette, IN; Chicago, IL; and Chattanooga, TN. And a little bit in Osaka, Japan.
How did you discover FA/HAES: I’ve done work with the amazing Judith Matz, LCSW. She’s a therapist, speaker, author and wrote The Diet Survivor’s Handbook. She taught me about HAES and being compassionate with oneself.
How did you become one of the Abundia 8: I have a big mouth.
What is your FA/HAES philosophy: Don’t yell at yourself. Be compassionate with yourself. Eat foods that make you feel good. Morality and food don’t belong together. Teach your children that people come in all sizes and shapes and colors and abilities and we all should accept each other every day.
What’s your favorite FA/HAES website or book or resource: Big Big Love by Hanne Blank. I just read it and it was enlightening and resonant.
What one thing could you never give up: The support of my parents AND CAT.
Why are you amazingly awesome exactly as you are: I made close friends with the other Abundia organizers, including Jenny and Tracy. Also I’m a teacher and an artist and I love picking out gifts for people.